written over the days of 2025-08-01 to 2025-08-04

The Plan

Leading up to the August long weekend, I was dreading it. I took friday off work in advance and monday was a civic holiday, so I was supposed to be looking forward to a 4 day weekend… but I didn’t have any plans. My boyfriend Alex is going backpacking at Lake Superior and would barely have any signal, my local friends were all out of town, and it would be just me and my 2 cats (which I normally don’t mind). It’s also actually 3 cats, because I have to checkup on my friend’s cat occasionally to make sure she’s doing well and has water.

I usually enjoy spending time alone, in fact spending too much time with people makes my brain feels like goo. But I’m only alone this weekend due to the back injury I’m recovering from, otherwise I could have also gone camping with Alex. (I don’t even know if I would’ve gone, I’ve never been backpacking, but not having the option is frustrating, ok!)

Also there is a large part of me that’s worried I would spend the entire weekend in a runescape-fueled haze, playing for 14 hours straight without breaks and eating poorly without anyone around to help regulate or engage me in you know… the real world.

Then I watched a video by caricakes (I usually watch her book content, not her vlog content) and was inspired by her talking about sharing photos of your trips with people you wish were there with you, while solo traveling. Technically I’m not the one traveling, but it still made sense to my brain. (I still don’t think I could handle going to a restaurant alone).

So this is my blog, both an attempt to hold me accountable to actually do non-runescape things (although it’s fine to play some runescape), and a cute little newsletter I can show my boyfriend when he gets back about all the things I got up to since I can’t really text him all weekend.

My plan for the weekend is to gamify it and challenge myself to do the following every day:

• 1-2 chores (non-fun things)
• 1-2 fun things (that aren’t runescape)
• Do something more engaging on my walks
• Check in here every morning & evening

I’m trying not to make it too ambitious (I may very well do more than 1-2 of both category) but I prefer to make the expectations low and then exceed them than to fail to meet them.

I already do 2 walks a day as part of my physiotherapy for my back injury, but I want to try to walk to a cafe a bit further away, or maybe go to a park and read for a little bit. Basically, get more outside time because it’s been so melting hot and humid recently I’ve been slacking. Although the last couple days have been less suffocatingly humid, so that’s an improvement.

Also I hope that by forcing myself to check in both morning and evening, maybe it’ll help me wind down in the evenings and wake up in the mornings, and not result in me ruining my regular sleep. I tend to sleep poorly when Alex is away because it’s hard to turn my brain off and fall asleep.

A vague outline of options for the weekend:

I’m not plannong to do even 50% of these things, but I wanted an easy reference with lots of ideas to look at when I run out of inspiration or motivation.

Friday (Aug 1)

Morning ☀️

It’s day 1 and I’m already writing this a bit later than I planned (it’s currently 10:20am) because Alex was getting ready to head out and it was a bit chaotic. I also got up earlier than usual and kind of puttered around trying to make coffee but doing steps wrong because I was tired. Alex ended up making our coffees instead. We had a quick breakfast, and then we said goodbye! I did a bit of knitting and then wrote the intro you just read.

When I came up with this plan, my original idea was to start of Friday by going to the library and getting a random book, then spend the weekend reading it. It’s the exact sort of cozy and whimsy I’m trying to bring more of into my life. Unfortunately, I have a job interview (non-technical, but still need to be ready for it) at 2pm, and it’s killed my motivation to do anything more exciting beforehand because then I’ll need to keep an eye on a clock. Having to look at clocks kills all the fun vibes. Also I walked to the library last night for a cute market event, and I’m kind of lazy to do the same route again. I wish my bike wasn’t currently broken.

So I think I’ll just go to the library tomorrow instead, have a chill day until 2pm, and then see what I feel like doing after. I might do some runescape to stop overthinking everything I said (god I hate interviews, they drain me mentally in a way nothing else does).

For daily chores: I’m definitely counting the interview as a chore because I do want the job but I really don’t want to do the interview. Maybe I should count it as double points. Does paying rent count as a chore? Because I did that, but I’m not sure I should get credit for it. I don’t need to do groceries today, I’ll go tomorrow instead, I’ll just make some new rice to eat with leftover curry. I think I’ll aim to fold and put away the laundry I ran yesterday and also clean the kitchen.

For fun things… I’m in the mood to knit because I’m almost done the ribbing on my sleeve. But my shoulders are a bit sore, so I don’t want to do that all day. I don’t have a book to read in the park yet. I’ll check in on my friend’s cat on my afternoon walk, and try to get some sewing done because I’m not far off finishing my current project (darcy bloomers) which I’m excited for because they’re kind of whimsical shorts for under dresses (or just as pyjamas).

The interview looming over me is really putting a damper in my plans, I’m not feeling as ambitious as I was before it was scheduled on Wednesday. Hopefully once it’s over I can focus more on the creative things I wanted to do.

Evening 🌚

Honestly, today was not really the best day. After my interview I tried to destress with some runescape but I kept overthinking everything I said. It honestly went fine, nothing bad, I think I did fine. Good enough to proceed? Who knows. But all the thoughts kept circling in my head and it was tricky to disconnect. I did get a little phonecall with Alex before he goes more off grid, which was nice to get some of my overthinking thoughts out and have him comfort me.

I did get a lot done though! That’s an accomplishment! Also a decent amount of runescape! I’d call that a win/win.

My test swatch looks great! A friend gave me advice on how to remember which side I did with which needles. I’m not sure my plan for this yarn (I got a ton of colours from a thrift store for very cheap which is great because I want to do a scrappy cotton tank top), but also the yarn label is so wrong about the weight I needed to test it before I could even start planning.

The yarn is Hobbi Rainbow 8/4 which says it’s a super fine (1) but also has 2.5-3.5mm as the recommended needle size. I’m sorry but 3.5mm is not a super fine yarn. I’d consider it more sport weight. I didn’t block it yet, although I doubt it’ll change much, I’ll do that tomorrow.

My Norma sweater at the start of the weekend:

My Norma sweater at the end of day 1:

Also I think I might actually be able to finish my sweater this weekend? I have 2 more stripes and the ribbing left on one sleeve.. that’s super attainable, and super exciting for it to be ready for the fall. I’m gonna wear it non stop, I love the colours so much. But it’s not a big deal if it takes a couple more days.

I was super motivated to do the laundry and change the sheets because our new seersucker sheets arrived and I wanted to put them on. It was difficult though… we have a very comfortable bed that is also 5000 pounds and is difficult to manoeuvre alone, not even to mention having a bad back. I was literally huffing and puffing BUT I DID IT! Zlatko gets all the credit for being my helpful (really unhelpful) assistant. I also did both my physio walks, but I didn’t do my physio exercises. I was too tired, I’ll definitely do them tomorrow.

My friend’s cat was super affectionate when I went to visit her, although she eventually remembered I was a stranger and got a bit scared of me. I’m gonna try and spend a bit more time with her tomorrow, since she seems lonely. (Alex, when you get to this part pause and watch all the videos I took. There’s too many to put here, but you’ll want to watch all of them).

Highlight of the day was definitely having two cats on top of me for a very brief instant. Zlatko (orange cat, 16) doesn’t really appreciate how much Riki (black cat, 2) loves him. She’s his biggest fan girl (only tied with me).

I’m also still committed to the library tomorrow, and I need to go grocery shopping because they’ll be closed sunday and monday. See you then! I hope to sleep well despite all the interview jitters.

Saturday

Morning ☀️

I may have accidentally stayed up too late last night yapping with a friend. If the goal was not to stay up too late because I was struggling to sleep, technically I didn’t do that? My cats woke me up at 9am so that’s not too bad.

The grocery store closes at 6 but I am determined to make it to library today, so I forced myself to get up at and headed out at 10am so I could rest before groceries.

I got bagels and coffee before I went to the library. I immediately ate a tuna with crispy onions and got a strawberry and blueberry one to eat later.

Then I headed over to the library. My goal was deliberately to get a book I had never heard of before. It gets tiring how all book reviews online tend to cover the same books, with all the book people I follow are all reading the same book at the same time. I get it - you see a good review, you want to read it. But I wanted to actively chose a book I knew basically nothing about.

I found that this was actually a pretty difficult challenge because the library only had a “fiction” & a “non fiction” section. I was in the mood for a fantasy book, but there was only vibes of the spine to go off to guess what a book was about.

I wandered for a bit and then ended up picking a book I found in the new section called “The Cautious Travelers Guide to the Wastelands” by “Sarah Brooks”.

It is said there is a price that every passenger must pay. A price beyond the cost of a ticket.

It is the end of the 19th Century and the world is awash with marvels. But there is nothing so marvellous as the Wastelands: a terrain of terrible miracles that lies between Beijing and Moscow.

Nothing touches this abandoned wilderness except the Great Trans-Siberian Express: an impenetrable train built to carry cargo across continents, but which now transports anyone who dares to cross the shadowy Wastelands.

On to the platform steps a curious cast of characters: a grieving woman with a borrowed name, a famous child born on the train and a disgraced naturalist, all heading for the Great Exhibition in Moscow.

But the old rules are changing, and there are whispers that the train isn’t safe. As secrets and stories begin to unravel the passengers and crew must survive their journey through the Wastelands together, even as something uncontrollable seems to be breaking in . . .

I’m not actually sure if it is a fantasy or some kind of alternate reality, the blurb didn’t really tell me, but that’s even more intriguing. What really got me though is that the book takes place on a train. Who doesn’t love trains? And it’s the trans-siberian express, which is always a great atmosphere. And then when I saw the book had a little map of the train, and I knew this was the book I was going to read.

(At first I thought it was weird first class was at the rear of the train, I feel like usually first class is in the front. Think planes or modern trains, that’s the layout I always see. But I also think this is historically accurate? because trains back then were coal-polluting, loud nightmares, and the first class wanted to be as far as possible from the engine itself. Although I don’t know if this book is historical. Probably at least a little, I doubt someone’s going to pull out an iPhone. (edit: the summary says 19th century, I don’t know how I missed that))

Now I’m at the park, writing this annoyingly on my phone, because it’s 11:57 and I was supposed to write this when I got up but I was tired and also trying to head out earlier so I could rest before groceries. I’m going to read at least one chapter, maybe walk through some of the park, and then head home. I’ll probably take transit home so I can enjoy the park more and not get too tired (my feet are really sore).

Oh! Two people told me they liked my dress :) which was nice.

Evening 🌚

I read a few chapters but struggled to get into the book. I don’t know if it was the book, the noise in the distance, or my sleepiness, so I decided to head home. I ended up stopping by another cafe for an icy drink cause I was thirsty post coffee and read another chapter before taking transit home.

I did a little bit of runescape when I got home as a little treat for finally going to the library, and to rest a bit. I got an armour seed, which puts me at 4/6! I’ve really only done gauntlet this weekend, I have the bowfa and the legs are close now I’m so motivated. Today I also beat my daily record (I did 15!).

Interlude: I realize I have a weird combination of hobbies. I don’t really expect anyone to understand all my references to knitting, reading, runescape, sewing… I don’t know. I write what I want haha, I’m not trying to make a knitting blog or a runescape blog, I’m trying to make an Ena blog :) so I put what I want I guess!

Then I forced myself to take a break (I really just wanted to keep grinding for the drop I want) and made my grocery list and did the groceries.

Grocery list

• for potato salad (ill probably made it monday so alex can have some)
  • 2 large potatoes
  • 1 medium cucumber
  • corn
  • ham
  • Kewpie mayonnaise (if they have it)
• sausages (to go with potato salad? or something else) - food monday
• fish (to go with my leftover rice from yesterday - food saturday)
• something to eat on sunday (a form of pasta?)

Grocery shopping was quick but also I had to wait at FOUR (4) individual counters!!

1. pasta counter
2. deli counter
3. fish counter
4. meat counter

so I’m a bit drained. I like to call myself an introverted extrovert, if I spend a lot of time alone I go stir crazy (that’s why I’m doing this whole thing - all my friends are out of town!) but also talking to too many people, especially people I don’t know, leaves me mentally exhausted. It was only after the grocery store plus the bagel place plus the library plus the cafe that I started overthinking my interview again. Or all the interviews I’ve been doing recently. Or my current job. You know, the normal or whatever.

After I put the groceries away I organized and lightly cleaned the bathroom. I actually remembered to take before/after pics, so here’s the closet I improved. I’ve been thinking about reorganizing this to be more useful for ages and now I’ve finally done it, woo:

I did a little bit of extra cleaning: vacuuming in the rooms the cats weren’t sleeping in, wiping down surfaces and the dining table better, sweeping up cat litter. Generally the apartment is already in a WAY better state than it was when Alex gets back. I can’t wait to surprise him! Haha, see how clean your home is, loser!!

Also I blocked my swatch:

It’s cotton yarn so I didn’t expect a significant transformation and I was correct. But I did learn that it has poor recovery on stretch on the ribbed part. I was considering doing the fausta bralette with this yarn, and I think I’ve changed my mind. I’ll do something not ribbed instead, and use a yarn with better stretch recovery (merino like the pattern?) instead.

I took my book to my friend’s place and cuddled her cat while I read another chapter. It was a lot nicer than scrolling social media on my phone, and I stayed a bit longer than yesterday since she seems very lonely & bored. She seems less scared of me too!

Then I came home, did my physio, cooked my salmon with maple syrup and soy sauce and garlic and ate it on leftover rice. I accidentally have way too much salmon and rice, which is ruining my food plans. I think instead I will do:

I don’t really eat breakfast beyond coffee and maybe a snack. Also I was going to take photos of all my meals, but I haven’t done many. I’ll try to remember for the rest of the weekend.

And I think my general focus for the rest of the weekend is:

I’m gonna relax with my friends on discord for the rest of the night. Maybe I’ll get some knitting done (I didn’t do any today, but I’m so close to finishing my sleeve!) (update: I did do a little knitting! found a mistake and spend 40 minutes fixing it whoops), but I did a lot of other things I wanted to so I’m happy. Although maybe I’m not really, I’m stressed about all the things I wanted to do this weekend (I haven’t sewn in days but my shorts are so close to being done!). So I think I’ll try and focus sewing tomorrow, since I haven’t done any yet.

This “challenge” is going pretty well. I make lists (mentally & physically) a lot, but I rarely remember to come back and look at them, so this is doing great for me! I was looking at some of the chore ideas I had on Friday I already forgot about.

Goodnight 🙂

Sunday

Morning ☀️

Evening 🌚

I didn’t write an entry this morning. I woke up not feeling the best, physically or mentally, and saw my friends playing runescape and I made the intentional choice to just hang out and chill for a bit. Is it better because I intentionally decided “today isn’t the best day, fuck it”? Than just accidentally slipping into it, keeping telling myself I’m going to stop, and then not stop?

Also the air quality was poor out today. My walk to my friend’s yesterday left my lungs burning, I hadn’t noticed it worsen (I have asthma) so I decided not to go the park. If it’s better out tomorrow, I’ll go, but I’d rather not hurt my lungs.

Around noonish I was getting a bit headachy (I should wear my glasses more; I’m only +0.5 but I can start feeling pain in the eyes if I spend too long looking at screens. Usually I’m fine, but I guess it’s been a pretty online weekend despite all the effort I’ve put.) So I took a break, I could’ve written my morning entry but I wasn’t feeling it. I did a little bit of knitting with Zlatko, before he decided my knitting was a cat bed and I could no longer use it.

Then I got motivated to finally tackle my closet. This was a long time coming, honestly. I was struggling to find clothes I like, despite it being so full, also I’ve gained some weight due to being less physically active due to my back (months of bed rest will do that to you!). I even took before and after photos again! A lot of the motivation was just to take pictures of when it was done, so it was fun to compare.

This was a really big task though, it took me multiple hours and had multiple steps:

• Take everything out & vacuum the closet
  • Zlatko likes to sleep in the back of my closet under the clothes and on the ikea cloth boxes. I had to really vacuum a lot of cat hair
• Try everything on, divide into piles:
  1. Keep: This is straightforward.
  2. Sentimental: Goes to storage.
  3. No longer fits: Things I still really like but don’t fit comfortably instead. Keep for now and reevaluate later, I expect to lose some weight since I’m more active these days. Goes to storage.
  4. Minor fixes needed: a strap is fraying, or the sleeves are too long, or the sleeves are too tight. Things that are minor issues for me to fix and I still really like them despite small fit issues (maybe would be a fun post in the future when I tackle it!)
  5. Future sewing projects: Fabrics I like but not fits I like (colour, fibre content), either for upcycling or patchwork projects. For example, I have a nice cotton cardigan but I hate wearing cardigans, and it’s very long so it’s a lot of fabric. I could make something I’d actually wear out of it.
  6. Donate/sell: Nice/brand stuff I’ll probably try to sell somehow, the rest goes to a donation bin
• Fold everything into nice piles, put away in closet or in donation bags or into longterm storage

I spent a while trying to find the best organizational method that would be the most useful and easy for me to see and use. I had to be a bit honest with myself; I work from home and spend most of my time in pyjamas. Those things need to be the most accessible. I’m really happy with it, I’m less sad about clothes I like not fitting because I’m not constantly looking at them. Now when I try to get dressed, I know the pair of pants I think about putting on will fit on me, instead of trying on multiple pairs until I find one that fits. Honestly, the “not fitting” ones still physically fit, but they’re uncomfortable to lounge around in, so I think I’ll be able to wear them again soon, but I’m happy to have them out of the way for now.

I did make sure Zlatko still had a spot to nap in the closet in.

Then I was really tired so I ate dinner: pasta with tuna, alfredo, and pesto - I even took a photo! (edit: no I didn’t? am I losing it? there’s no photo on my phone). This is my favourite go-to tired recipe. It’s so easy, and the alfredo & pesto are optional additions, so just a can of (oily required, water based doesn’t coat the pasta nicely) tuna and spaghetti, my peak comfort food.

Then I put on my mask and went over to hang out with my friend’s cat again. It was kind of creepy how empty it was out, I’d never seen the trail near my house empty. Especially not at 7pm on a Sunday, there’s constantly tons of people walking or biking. The low quality of air is starting to really become a problem 😕 Well, I read two chapters and then headed home, did my physio exercises, and a bit more gauntlet in runescape.

At this point I really wanted to keep going at gauntlet, in fact I made a great meme!

But my hands started hurting. My goal for the weekend really was to do 50 cg but also get other things done (not from day 1; not sure when I came up with this plan mentally, but an armour seed is 1 in 50 and I NEED ONE MORE) and I’m at 37/50 so I don’t know if I will achieve that.

My clicking fingers are starting to struggle to keep up, I play runescape a lot it’s been a more INTENSE gaming this weekend than usual, since I’ve been playing less total so whenever I do play I’m doing gauntlet and clicking a lot. It’s been a while since I’ve dealt with hand pains actually, like 2 months? I think that’s pretty good, especially since knitting also strains my hands, usually I get shoulder/neck pain. So I might not be able to do any tomorrow, but I also haven’t done any sewing this weekend so maybe I’ll make the time to do that (and read) tomorrow.

But more importantly, tomorrow I am going to make my potato salad!! I am determined!! That is priority number 1, above all else. And a walk to the park, if the air quality is decent, but obviously my health is more important.

It’s only a holiday in Canada tomorrow so my friends went to bed early. I might finish my drink and read another chapter of my book, although maybe that’s a bad idea because it’s getting a bit spooky. I am struggling to get into the book a bit, it’s kind of a very slow start, I’m hopeful things will start happening soon. I’m getting a bit tired of the “silly british people in foreign countries!” trope, but this book does seem to have more than that so I’m suspending my review.

Monday

Morning ☀️

Last day of this adventure and it’s the only day I’ve actually started writing the morning entry in the morning before I got out of bed! So I guess this will be a short update, because I haven’t done anything.

Zlatko was very cute this morning, he purred a lot and we cuddled for a long time. He also screamed at me overnight, like he has the last couple nights. I don’t know why he keeps screaming in the morning, 75% of the time it’s because he wants attention, but the other 25% he leaves and if you follow him he just stands in the middle of the living room. He hasn’t been fed in the morning for over 2 years at this point, I thought he had learned better.

My hands feel a bit sore; I think I need to give up on my gauntlet dreams, I just want to be done. I also don’t think I’m going to finish my sweater, although I am so close! I can’t decide if the sleeve length is good, it’s a good length when I’m standing straight but when I raise my arms it rides up. I think I can just make the ribbing a bit longer, although I’ll have to redo my castoff edge.

I think I’ll make a coffee and do a little bit of sewing. I also want to organize my fabric stash, because I know I have some finished items buried in there that I also need to declutter like I did my closet yesterday.

Oh I just remembered I need to go back and add photos and edit this… I should do that today. Haha, I really don’t want to. Maybe I’m not cut out for this, or maybe I’ll do it tuesday afternoon. The last day of a nice break sucks, back to work tomorrow 😟 I wish Alex would be back before then, but he probably won’t be back until tuesday evening.

Evening 🌚

I did make progress on my sewing for about 2 hours! I finished one side of the split side bloomers, so all I have left is the other side, hemming, and adding gathers (elastic) to the legs. I have been kinda winging the construction, not taking as much care as I should. It’s hard to make myself care when it’s something that would never be visible (but would be very cute to wear under a dress!), and because it’s been my current WIP for so long. I do want to try to be more slow and mindful when sewing, taking the time to make things pretty, but I also think it’s ok to have some projects that you just don’t care as much as a breather.

Unfortunately, I crashed out a bit afterwards. I guess the last day feels a bit melancholy, and a friends said something that hurt me, so I didn’t really do much but knit for the rest of the day. I did force myself to make the potato salad, which was some fun, but that faded quick. I also gathered a bit of motivation to take an inventory of my fabric stash, which is less than 2 boxes! (although I have more fabric on the way…) which was quick but was also something I’d been procrastinating.

I checked on my friend’s cat, read 2 more chapters. The book is starting to get interesting, but I’m struggling to connect with the writing a bit. Maybe now that things are picking up a bit, I can get more drawn in. I didn’t do my physio today, my legs were pretty sore from yesterday’s clothing marathon, and I only did the one walk to my friend’s place and back due to continued poor air quality. I’m sad I didn’t get to go the park, I really want to spend more time outside. I wish I had a backyard just to relax in, without it having to be an entire affair of planning and walking to the park. One day right? that’s the dream…

I got home and I was still feeling meh, so I decided fuck it I’m going to knit and watch TV or something. I’ve been watching a lot of youtube all weekend, and sometimes I feel like the super engaging & informative content, while good and I love it, eventually leaves my brain a bit deep fried. A narrative is a bit slower, with moments to breathe, and I probably need that.

Luckily, Riki rose to the occasion and snuggled up on top of me the moment I’d gotten set up. She proceeded to be an adorable hindrance to my knitting, which obviously I did not mind. She played with my yarn, delivered a thousand licks, and slept peacefully. She really helped soothe me, I love my little void, she always knows when I need her most.

I finished the second sleeve, and unraveled the castoff edge of the first one. Here’s the final state of the sweater after the week, I think I got a lot done! I’m like 5 rows and 2 castoffs away from being done (don’t include weaving in the ends and the final block).

I watched the first three episode of Bucaneers. I expected it to be like Bridgerton, which to be fair it was in a lot of ways, wow the historical inaccuracies! But obviously that isn’t the goal, and I’m kind of obsessed with the Duke. He’s so sweet compared to the typical macho love interests, he’s kind of a glass of fresh air. I’m scared we’re so early in… what other drama shall befall them? I know it’ll get dumb and repetitive, I kind of wish it could’ve just ended with his cute as hell proposal.

Then I finished up the write up. So thanks for coming on this adventure with me! I’m going to go finish episode 3 and then go to sleep. My goal is to have this fully formatted with pictures by the time Alex gets home tomorrow because I want him to read it, but he’s got a long drive so I don’t expect him to be home before 9pm so I’ll have plenty of time.

Conclusion

Let’s look at the final results of my week! Things I accomplished/added/didn’t:

It makes sense I got more chores done, they’re quicker than my fun ideas usually (finishing an entire sewing project is a lot more work than going grocery shopping). I am sad I didn’t get more done, but also I got a lot done so I think I’m just going to call this weekend a success, even if mentally I wasn’t really there.

It upsets me that I spend so much time of my time & life thinking about all the creative things I want to do. I have so many projects planned, so many exciting things I want to do. But the motivation and the time are the hardest parts, but when I spend all my time thinking about these things I start to feel hopeless when it feels like progress is unattainable. Even when I have the time, motivation is near impossible. Sometimes it feels like why do I even try? But the moments I do get to create are so worth it. I struggle with focusing too much on the finished product, and not the journey it took me to get there, I need to work on this. The deadline of seasons is stressful and overwhelming, but without deadlines I struggle to get things done, so it’s hard to fully give them up.

I know I’m a bit neurotic, I was way worse in school. I guess I’m still learning at 28 how to correctly pace myself.

Maybe we’ll do this again on another long weekend, maybe one where I’m less stressed and I have more actual things planned! I probably would’ve been more inspired to work on my projects if I had friends to craft with.

Oh by the way: I got a follow-up interview from the one I had Friday, so I guess I did well enough! The next interview is technical, which I’m dreading to even book, but I guess I should probably focus on that over the next couple days. I’m just hoping for the anxiety to go away.

There was a lot of times during the week where I considered abandoning this project, especially on Monday. I really find my creative motivations are like a rollercoaster, and I’m getting better at acknowledging the lows so I can be ready for the highs. I was kind of dreading finalizing this write up and prepping all the photos, but I turned on some music and plugged my laptop into my monitor (I rarely use my desk properly) and got it done while baking bread. It was cozy, and I do feel more motivated to try and add more of my thousands of ideas to this blog.

Zlatko just wants to add that the sweater is his until I finish his blanket. I’ll cast that on soon, I promise Zlatko, don’t ruin all my knitted clothes please.

(edit: I did finish this before Alex got back! I probably won’t force it on him tonight, I’ll maybe send it to him on his lunch break tomorrow hehe)

(also I’ll add a little edit here with my book review once I finish it!)